I just want to cry. Angers and sadness mixed in one place : My brain. My heart so soft and fragile. I cannot tell the differences between lies and facts. Fraud or sincerity. I found it goddamn hurt!
I cried and cried, tried my best to forget. But harder I try, harder this thing hit me down. Or I just cannot end well what I've started? Oh Trini! How dare you! You stupid and crazy! Now you have to face the concequences!
I pulled up myself to the edge of facts and feeling. I don't give a damn! But I am addicted. Should I stop? Now I am questioning myself, "what do you want?".
My head is spinning. I assume everything. I browsed all the facts, then my feeling start to play with me. Oh come on! Not now!!!
Maybe I just need sometimes. I don't know what I should do, back off or walk on it. Just give myself space and time to think. I enjoy the pain. I don't know until when. I don't really now.
